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Mmmmm….. cheese

September 12th, 2007

I recently started using BakeSpace.com. It’s a food social networking site. I really like it. Among other things, the emphasis seems to be on food, not foodies, a distinction I appreciate. People post recipes, often with pictures, and you can then bookmark them to save them in your own “cookbook”. You can also have friends, with various functionality, and there’s a forum that’s interesting.

I like the site and recommend it. And if you follow this link to join, you’ll automatically be my friend!

Fear

September 11th, 2007

I recently wrote a bit about the insurance problems I had when I tried to get a particular medication for my skin. As I wrote before, my insurance is now covering this medication, and I’ve been using it for several weeks. The results are extraordinary — my skin looks fantastic.

The only problem is that I have to inject the medication into my thigh — and I’m afraid of needles. I have an honest-to-god phobia of them. Don’t try telling me that it only hurts a little or that it’s no big deal. It’s not about the pain or how long it takes or how easy it is — it’s about the needle. Simply seeing a picture of a needle is enough to scare the crap out of me, and the first time I picked up this prescription from the pharmacy, I had a panic attack in the car — I was holding needles, and the thought of all those sharp syringes in the bag in my hands was unbearable.

Slowly but surely, I’ve been getting better at giving myself these shots. I won’t go into the embarrassing details of how difficult it has been, but I’ll just say it’s been *very* difficult. A lot of my anxiety about the shots has crept into various artistic outlets — the “Wait” ATC I posted yesterday has a very anxious feel to it, and much of my work has had an unhappy, serious turn lately. I also made a simple visual journal page about it:

Perilous

The image is from Reader’s Digest — I hate that magazine, but it does have fantastic pictures (and for reasons unknown, we’ve been getting it for years without ever having subscribed to it!). The article was about the medicalization of mood. When I first ripped the image out of the magazine, it hurt to look at it, but after giving myself these shots for a while, I found the image in a pile and realized I could look at it without silently screaming in my head. The text in the page above is about my fear — you can click through to Flickr to read it, but it’s not particularly enlightening. Real-life fears are so depressingly ordinary.

I keep flipping to that page in my journal, and I find it very satisfying. It’s not particularly artistic, but I like the colors and I find it reassuring to see the picture and not hear the screaming in my head.

Inspiration

September 10th, 2007

A few of the things I’ve found inspiring lately:

Kelly Kilmer’s visual journals, especially this Frida page. I love the scribbled background and the bold black circles. I can’t get the memory of this page out of my head — every time I sit down to work in my own journal, this is what I see. I took a class from Kelly a few weeks ago — it was fantastic.

The monochromatic pages my friend OriginalYouth is making. I struggle with monochromatic pieces — I’m forever sneaking in other colors, because I find it difficult to vary the tones with just one color. OriginalYouth’s pieces are the exact opposite — how she’s able to use all those tones and shades, I’ll never know!

The Journal Pages of Anahata Katkin. She teaches journal workshops, and I’ll definitely be on the lookout for one in my area. I really like the feeling of her journals, and the balance of text and images in pages like this one or this one.

Wait

September 10th, 2007

I’ve been obsessively making Artist Trading Cards for about a year now. In that year, I’ve made and traded several hundred cards (I haven’t kept track of exactly how many), and I’ve developed a style that I’m pretty happy with. I’m also a lot more comfortable with making art AND I have a fantastic collection of ATCs made by some amazing artists. All in all, it’s been really great for me.

Here’s a recent card, it’s one I’m particularly fond of, as all the elements are bits of things I found — the hand was on a piece of paper I picked up off the floor during an art class I took a few weeks ago. It’s called “Wait”:

Wait

Although I’m making different things now (altered books, tip-in pages, art journal pages), I think I’ll always love making these cards.